alive (but barely breathing)

once into it, i don't ever want to quit
but you know very well
that this can't go on
okay i admit i shouldn't have ever started it
but once pressed to my lips
and all hope was gone

alive but barely breathing
your smile is so deceiving
give me a lie to keep believing
or show me the only thing
that never dies

the spark ignites a flame
the endings' always just the same
what makes me so anxious
when you're not around?
if things aren't working out
i just can't seem to do without
this one dirty habit
you're hard to put down

i'm sorry that's how i am
in like a lion, out like a lamb